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I've torn through the woods
Combed the deserts
Rummaged through sale racks
Searching...

My eyes and ears have always been perked.
Where's my holywood romance??

I can buy a dress that I think looks amazing when I'm in the dressing room... and then when I wear it the next day, I'll check out the girl at the end of the bar and wish I'd found what she's wearing... forgetting that I thought I looked great until I checked her out :-/

Never quite satisfied.
Constant comparison.
Taking it all for granted.

Once... I looked all over the house for (I'm not exagerating) an HOUR looking for a t-shirt. One grey tshirt with a skater on it... I drove myself nuts looking for it. After what felt like forever, I finally realized that I already had it on - just under a sweatshirt.

HOLY fK WADS Prince Charming is coming to dinner??? Clean up! I have to look good... So, I wait for hours... you sit there on the couch shaking your head.
Wait... are you?
Shit.
If only I'd had that moment where I stopped and looked under my sweatshirt...I'd have seen my heart.

It would have been a lovely evening

A perfect teal cylinder
Smoothly covered in soft icing
I thought of you instantly when I saw it
I pictured us sharing bits as we sipped on ice cold milk and giggled at nonsense
The lady packaged it nicely
I brought it home and set the table
But you're not coming, are you?
Nobody is.
It's just me, and this confection
Alone, hashing out our issues
Staring at the yellow crumbs and streak of pale blue left on the cardboard, I think victory is mine!
Then I realize…
I lost.